This week has been a blur of riding, hiking, drinking, self-pity, anger, and resentment. I know I rode my bike once (Monday?). I also know that Tuesday was spent at the bike shop getting a crap ton of stuff done to the Boone, and that Wednesday I rolled down the driveway, into the cul-de-sac, said “fuck it,” rolled right back up the driveway into the garage, changed out of my kit and went to find peace and solitude with a walk in the woods.
I needed to hear the crunch of leaves under my feet, to hear the wind whistling through the trees, and to see the river peacefully meandering by. I needed to clear my mind, and wrap my thoughts around what the citizens of the United States had just done. Not by electing a conservative Republican president, I can live with that. I wouldn’t be happy about it, but I could totally live with it if the person at least knows what they’re doing and isn’t a racist, bigoted, misogynist homophobe. I find it hard to believe that half of American voted for a person that they KNOW is an incompetent asshole with horrible hair.
All of that is water under the bridge now, and all we can do is hope that the country doesn’t get too screwed up, and even more divided in the next 4 years.
Enough of all this political bullshit, I need to get my mind back on more important things like riding, hiking, food, picture taking, beer, and soccer.
I’m sure all that will come in time, but right now things still seem all over the place. Hoping by this time next week I am refocused, and have formulated a plan, to get a plan, to think about a plan to keep my life from continuing on the downward spiral it has been on the past few years. Finding a routine of work outside the home is a priority, followed by getting more focused on my health. Fingers crossed.